dreading dreading dreading...

dreading tomorrow...dreading her leaving...dreading the emptiness that would follow

dreading the weekend...dreading the end of holidays...dreading the lonely trip to vic mart.

dreading tuesday...dreading the start of yet another clinical block...dreading the questions and the endless need to concentrate CONCENTRATE CONCENTRATE.

today is filled with the dread for tomorrow...and tomorrow is filled with dread for the day after.

each day is a hopeless attempt to grasp shreds of memories...every moment, i wish i have a camera on-hand to take pictures of everything and everyone. so that when i am old and demented, i'd still have pictures to help me recall the past.

taken more pictures this year than in the past 3 years combined. although it's always with the same group of people...i can't get enough. after 3.5 years of pining for home, wishing i am back and urging time to fly faster, now all i want is for time to slow down it's relentless pace...

gimme more time to lay down more memories, more time to spend with these people who i really care and love...more time to let them know that despite my cool icy exterior, i am really burning with sadness of separation within.

an entry for the special "kids" in my life...for the third years...for my friends.



for those of you going home for winter...hope you'll all have a great break. eat more, rest well and i'll be here...waiting for your return.
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and silently whispering into the cold Melbourne wind - 'please come back soon...'