some people in your life just leave too deep a mark for you to totally forget about them. you can chuck them into some unknown corner in your mind..but one day, they still manage to find their way around to your consciousness.

or maybe we never really forget a person, no matter how insignificant they are in our lives. regardless how little impact each individual has made on your life, the little mark stays on your memory, in your subconscious.

anyway, saturday is passing too fast. not enough work got done...too much coughing and too much chest pain for me to try and do more work. argh...the only consolation is that i have Jay playing on my comp since wednesday.

loneliness overwhelms me far too often these days. and it's not the physical kind of loneliness, it's more of a mental and emotional isolation. being in a world where no one seem to be able to enter and stay on. not being understood, not having the kind of support i used to have.

i'm sad...and sick. that's a potent combination to drive me into the whirl of negative thinking and being drag further and further away from the rest of the "normal" people.