i am feeling 'short-fuse'. i think most sg guys know what this means. in case u dun, just think of a bomb with a short fuse. yep, that's me...easily detonated.

have been feeling like this for awhile now, especially when people ask me "how are you?" or "how's your day?" or "what's wrong?"

my usual reply?

"i'm ok" which i am not...
"ok lor" yeah like real...
"i'm just feeling tired"and upset and at the verge of tears but i dunno why and i wish i know why so i can stop feeling so crappy all the time...

someone is gonna say i have negative energy...and i admit that i do. i've been releasing harmful energy subconsciouly for a while now. but honestly, i dun really care if i'm negative or positive. cos watever i am, i just react to the things happening around me. every single thing in life becomes a potential way to light my fuse and make me lose my very weak control on my temper. little things which are mere courtesy from others...somehow, it just gets more and more difficult to say "i'm fine" when i really dun feel fine at all.

maybe it's accumulative. all the fustrations piling on top one another...or maybe, i am born with a short fuse.

everyone's chittering and chattering about physio ball today. the more people talk about it, the less excited i feel. right now, i am just tired...wanna stay in and not go out...hide under my quilt and sleep till the end of the world comes around.