i dun like feeling angry. it makes my head hurt..and it makes my stomach oversecrete gastric juices. then i end up with a throbbing headache and gastric pain. which makes me miserable...and makes me wanna tear my hair off my head.
and when it's someone dear that makes me that angry, multiply the above effect by 100, and add in sleeplessness, tears and a whole load of negative emotions. yesh,u've got urself CRANKY Gretel.
i am in such a foul mood this morning...that by the time my clinic ended for the day, i feel like i've just been punched in the stomach, kicked in the groin and slapped in the face. my eyes are hurting, my stomach is queasy, my hair is out of control.
i wish for happiness once again. my mood has been low since the start of this week. keep going on like that, i'll never get to go to my own graduation alive. arghz.
i hate being indecisive. not knowing what to do...not knowing how to do it. i hate being who i am right now. to sum it all up,i hate myself.
hate myself for being such a bitch. hate myself for being so sensitive. hate myself for everything and anything bad that i can think of.
weekend coming up. supposedly fun time at Moomba is now suddenly intercepted by a potluck dinner first. dunno if i can deal with night of socialising...of juniors coming to me and asking me abt clinics, cardio or watever.
part of me can't wait for the fireworks by Yarra River. part of me just want to hole up in my bed and never wake up again.
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