what about me?

just read germ's, wing's and joanna's blog. just realised that they had been having lotsa fun celebrating bdays...surprising the bday girls...

Just felt that pang of hurt and envy stab through my heart. Just remembered the only song i liked by Shannon Noll..

"What about me? It isn't fair. I've had enough and I want my share."

Han Wei's been trying to console me, reminding me that my family and he did remember my bday...that i should not keep dwelling on that fact that so many others had forgotten about me. in fact, a rare few other frens had remembered and due to distance, can only send their greetings via email or e cards.

Perhaps I am being greedy. Perhaps I should really just forget about this whole bday disappointment crap..i keep telling myself,'it's just turning 22...not as if it's my 21st or something.'

But this little voice keeps reminding me about all the previous bday celebrations +/- surprises i've thrown for people i care about in the past 3 years. and this little voice keeps asking,"so how come you don't get one?" i shut that damn voice up for a couple of hours..and then it finds its way back into my head.

What about me? What have i done to not deserve a good bday celebration just for me?

I cannot remember that last time when i have a bday cake that is for me only...don't ever recall any bday surprises...and not a single memory of a bday party that's thrown just for me...

with all this emotions going through me right now...maybe november is not my fav month after all.