midnight surprise

last night was supposedly a night for me to try and catch up on my very deprived sleep. staying up to do assignment and revising for exams in just 3 weeks. so i was tucked up in my nice warm quilt, and my mind was drifting off to dreamland when suddenly, my usually silent phone came alive and jolt me out of my bed.

1st thot that jump into my head:yayy!!han wei calling me!!

so you can imagine how disoriented i am when a female voice answered and said,"Gretel! come down now can?" i was like HUH?!? NOW?!? i am in my sleeping clothes for goodness sake!!

took me about 10 secs to realise it was Esther,not my other half, calling me. Disappointment tasted bitter in my freshly brushed mouth. but still,i was surprised to know she wants me to go down. i mean,isn't it abit too early to spring a surprise bday thingie for me? (yesh yesh,i very thick-skinned *blush*)

then she explained the 2nd year are throwing a surprise bday thingie for Fangnian(a.k.a. Tony...the tiger) at Wing Ki's place. ahh..making abit of sense in my already fuzzy mind. so i changed into my "going out" clothes at neck-breaking speed, got whisked off by Esther to pick up Gin,Alicia and Wing Ki (dun ask me why wing ki is at esther's place instead of at her own place where the party should be..) and then before i can say "huh?", i arrived at wing ki's place and surrounded by these girls which make me feel about a century old.

they were HYPERACTIVE...got into a frenzy of massaging and trying to find where quadratus lumborum is while waiting for the bday boy to arrive.
and Fangnian was late...by 45 mins! spoil all the fun and surprise...grrr

so we sang bday song,eat cake and watch fangnian get drunk on vodka. He is super funny when he is drunk. i laughed till my jaws were aching.

finally,i arrived back at my apt at 3.15am.my brain is protesting by giving me a huge throbbing headache. i slipped back into my sleeping clothes,under my quilt and wait for sleep to come.

but strangely enough,sleep did not come as soon as i thot.i lay there,fresh memories of the fun everyone had at wing ki's place flashing before my eyes. and then,for no reason,i started crying.

yeah,i laughed. yeah,i kinda had fun. and yeah,i guess i should be happy to be part of a gathering. but there's a part of me that really aches...aching from missing the fun i used to have with the CS gang. throwing surprise bday bashes...playing Hearts till sun rise.

those were the days, and those days would never return. they would just be happy memories i hold dear in my heart. memories that would cause me pain at times,but can still put a smile on my face.

as i lay there,tears streaming down and wetting my pillow,hugging Odie tight and letting the sobs wreck my body...i silently say to my CS kakis in europe now...

I miss you. pls come back soon.