physio ball continued....

right now at the physio school comp lab, with the second years behind at another comp looking at the physio ball photos. alot of ohhs, ahhs, hahas,aiyohs,yeees and oh mys coming from them. guess some of the photos are abit controversial.
sadly,i find this year physio ball not as fun as last year. partly cos i wasn't in a good mood these days, partly cos i was so torn between sitting with the third years or second years. i know i am committed to sitting with the third years, but cos i am so much closer to the second years for the past weeks, i really wanted to be with them. in the end,i spent most of the time with the second years, and i am now feeling super guilty for not being with the third years. dunno issit becos too long never see the third years,i really have nothing much to say to them.and all they were talking abt is clinic clinic clinic. as much as i am finding clinic interesting, i really din want to talk abt it...i was feeling so bored at the ball last night. i am feeling horrible. sighz. and physio ball was supposed to be fun. once again, i am the only unhappy person in a group of happy (and high/drunk) people.
some of the second years got quite high last night on alcohol. esther went around wanting people to "skull" champange and wine and spirits. she ended up drunk and apparently now has a hangover from last night. all the second years have fun, so i guess that's a good thing cos for most of them,it's their first physio ball. at least they have fun. dun feel like going to physio ball next year...even though it's gonna be my last physio ball. feeling super sucky now. :< not only did i not enjoy myself much at the ball, some stupid *((&*^&%^% aussie stepped on my foot in her HEELS!!! now i got a bruise on the dorsum (front) of my right foot...SO PAINFUL!!! *sob*
slept over at germaine's place last night. finally got to sleep at abt 4+ am and i was so deep in sleep,i dun remember falling asleep. last thing i remembered was alicia blowing her hair dry in the bathroom, then next thing i know,the sky is bright and it's already 8+ am.
what a sad end to a supposedly fun night. everything in my life is not going right (or at least not the way i hope it would). would be going to Austin for clinic next week. hopefully things would start to get better soon. super homesick now. i want to GO HOME!!!! :""""""""""""""<